"Not always eye to eye.. but always heart to heart."

Happy mothers day to all the mothers out there! 
I wish that I could be with my mother day, especially since I haven't spent a mothers day with her in FOUR YEARS! Although, I have had very good reason to not be with her the past 3. Every mothers day of my college years has been spent with my great grandmother, and this is the first year without her here. It's a hard day. I woke up and immediately thought "I need to call granny!" and then realized that I could not. And although this made me extreme sad, it also made me remember that not only do I still have my mother, but I have 3 other grandmothers, and MANY other mother figures who love me and who also care for me. Although I lost a big part of my life and heart, I am not alone. I am not unloved or forgotten about. And I just wanted to remind all the mothers who have made a big impact in my life, that you are never forgotten about. I think of you often, even if I don't speak with you all the time. Not only that, but I love each and every one of you unconditionally and I am so glad that you are apart of my life. There are not enough gifts or ways to say I love you, to truly show the appreciation for what you do for your children every single day. I can't thank you enough for all the love and compassion we are spoiled with. 

To my mother, my backbone, my caretaker, and my biggest supporter (tied with granny because we both know she'd fight you for the title lol). I love you so much. I know our relationship and life has not always been the easiest, especially because we both know I am a handful! But I know that you have done your best, and you have always loved me, and I know you always will. I hope you never forget that everything I am, is because of you. Thanks for being my human incubator ;)
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College Student Struggles

It's been awhile since I have written a personal blog post, let alone a blog post at all. However, I felt the need to discuss something that came up in one of my online philosophy classes. 

For my online classes we have weekly discussion questions that have to be answered. A few weeks ago the discussion question was this.. "Take stock of an aspect of your own life in which you struggle to be virtuous. Think about why this might be the case and what action you intend to take to develop and maintain this virtue consistently in your life." Living a virtuous life can be a struggle for college students everywhere. Although no two college students have the same experience, the undergraduate years are marked by certain commonalities: students are challenged intellectually, socially, and ethically.

My classmates responses were all very interesting, but I did notice a recurring pattern. A lot of them spoke about struggling with patience. Whether it be when in class, with homework, while driving, or even with themselves. I began to really wonder why so many of my classmates struggled with being patient. Is it because we can get almost anything at the snap of our fingers due to technology? Or possibly some other reason? My professor also brought this up and asked if we believed it was because we live in a culture that promotes immediate gratification, hyper technology, and information overload. I definitely think this is the reason and because of this we are faced with having expectations that are void of the maturation that comes within the journey of time. 

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World Cancer Day & Childhood Cancer Day

 Every year on February 4th since 2000 has been World Cancer Day!

You might be wondering why that day is even important. Currently, 8.2 million people die from cancer worldwide every year, out of which, 4 million people die prematurely (aged 30 to 69 years)! World Cancer Day and Childhood Cancer Day are opportunity]i to spread the word as a community and raise the profile of cancer in people's mind, as well as in the world's media. 

February 15th was Childhood Cancer Day!
Globally, childhood and adolescent cancer is threatening to overtake infectious diseases, as one of the highest causes of disease-related mortality in children. I hope and ask that stakeholders in healthcare, parents, families, and communities advocate for government collaboration with national civil society organizations, non-profit groups and local communities to ensure that children and adolescents with cancer have appropriate care and support through the childhood cancer journey. It's not an easy journey and children with cancer - and even survivors like myself - will always need support. Be a voice for the voiceless and help raise awareness. You may think.. why does this apply to me? my child doesn't have cancer.. I never had cancer, etc. I thought the same once, and I never realized how important awareness for childhood cancer was until it happened to me. Don't wait until it happens to you or someone you know. Become educated and share your knowledge, donate, and continue to raise awareness to those around you and our government. If you'd like to make a donation then check this link out - >  http://bit.ly/2lT7KqG

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Happy New Year!!

Happy New Year Friends!

I brought in the new year in a great way! I was surrounded by good friends and I stayed out and danced all night! Unfortunately, I was too busy having fun to focus on getting pictures (on top of the fact that I was at a super packed night club lol), so you'll just have to imagine me dancing away with my friends! It was a great time honestly and I wish I could go back and do it again. But I know this year is going to be AMAZING and I already have so many fun things planned to do (in between my studying of course, ha!)

2016 was a rollercoaster. The passing of my grandma hit me hard. I am still grieving. The holiday season was very emotional for me because I always used to spend them with her..I'm actually going to keep this short because I am not one for pondering posts lately...

I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas season and a very happy new years celebration! I love the reflection that a New Year brings, but I am really looking forward to 2017! I have a lot of BIG goals I want to accomplish this year and I am very excited to check them off my list!  

It's a fresh start so be sure to make this year count! Whether the resolutions you have are big or small, take each day one step at a time and don't forget to put new energy towards all of your goals!
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5 Years Cancer Free, Now What?

For anyone that is familiar with cancer, you know that hitting the 5 year mark is huge in the cancer world. Most cancers, if they recur, are most likely to recur in the first 5 years. So, when survivors reach that 5 year mark, it is a huge milestone and many feel like a huge weight is taken off of their shoulders knowing that the “5 year date” is behind them.
To be completely honest, I've been far too stressed, busy, and distracted with other things in life to really process this huge moment, but I know what I'm feeling deep inside.
I honestly have no words. I have had a really hard year, but this.. this is the light at the end of the tunnel. The icing on the cake! The day that marks a huge milestone in cancer survivorship is finally here...is finally mine. I did it! To be honest, I never thought I would get here. I didn't even think I would make it to high school graduation and now I am a senior in college. Now, don't get me wrong. I’m under no illusions that five years under my belt gives me a permanent free pass. But I know that I worked hard to make it here and I am going to celebrate all day! 
When you feel threatened and like your days are numbered, you really learn how to LIVE your life fully, and you appreciate things that so many take for granted. I've lived more each year since cancer than I had in all of my life prior to cancer combined, and I've had five amazing and full years like that now. Cancer really does open your eyes and give you a whole new perspective on life, and I wouldn't give that back for the world.
So what changes in my life moving forward, now that I’m five years cancer free? Do I forget all of this, and go back to living my life how I did before? Not a chance. Cancer and the challenges of life after have marked my life in ways that are permanent, and I've had to evolve in ways that are permanent in response. There's no going back.
A cancer diagnosis as a teenager is a very deeply traumatizing experience in that it strips us of every sense of security that we might have had about our lives, our health and supposed longevity, and our futures and if we'll even have one anymore, all during the period of our lives when we're supposed to feel invincible.
I can never know how many days I have, or if my cancer will come back or not. Living my life fully in the present each day, helps me feel secure in that I'm not wasting my days or my life. 
I passed the 5 year mark… it just brings me to praise. It literally drops me to my knees. Our God is so incredibly mighty.
There are many days I wish he wouldn’t have used me and my family to show His glory in the way that he has ( I know that is completely selfish), but I am just blown away by Him and utterly thankful, as I have had a literal front seat to His miraculous power.
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Thankful For...

Happy Thanksgiving! I hope you are having an awesome day with your family and friends enjoying some good food. I hope you had a relaxing morning with your family watching the Macy’s Parade and hopefully now eating some good food! I wanted to take a few minutes and reflect on what i’m thankful for…

No Work
Christmas Decorations
Christmas Movies
Modern Technology
Ice Cream
Good Music
Family Memories
Comfy Clothes
Cool Weather
Star Wars Movies
Harry Potter Movies

It’s so easy to get dragged down by what goes wrong or unreached goals. I’m at the point in my life where I see that people are constantly evaluating where they are in life in comparison to other people. It’s so easy to look at your friend who just got engaged or your cousin who just had a baby or coworkers getting a promotion that you wanted. But the truth is, we all have struggles. And we all have a lot to be thankful for. I hope you've taken time today to reflect on what's important to you and what you're thankful for, not just this time of year, but year round.
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